I’m No Longer Afraid of My Truth

Revealing anything about myself which I deem as big or a lot would often have me feel the fear of causing loss or creating waves… and so I would mitigate my reveals, and my truth, with strategies in order to stay safe.

Then I learned, when I don’t own and reveal what’s happening, but instead strategize or, as I like to call this, posture over the top of my truth, I tend to disconnect deeply from self, otherwise known as self betrayal, therefore behaving strangely. 

Outcome? I collapse into a strange mess of self judgment and more disconnect, diving into whirling pools of shame, anger, and sometimes even depression.

Epiphany ~ posturing over the top of my truth is where the actual loss occurs. Loss of SELF. 

Remedy ~ own and reveal what's actually happening and face the unknown-unproven idea of loss.

Guess what? When I do finally own and reveal, I feel connected to self, and in most cases I don't risk loss.

I often gain closeness to myself, clarity, and closeness to others.

And in some cases, I risk loss, and even so, it tends to occur like wholeness and wellness instead.

So there's that!